Gonna Raise My Ebenezer. Rock Needed.

When I hear Chris Rice singing "Come Thou Fount", which by the way due to some glitch in my brain, once I hear a song I am attracted to, I keep playing it and playing it over and over, I can't get it out of my head. My poor children at one point were unfortunately unwittingly forced to listen to Hoopastank's "The Reason"....way beyond the legal limit. (years ago...divorce you know..)  Anyhow,  I realize my entire biography is contained in the hymn, "Come Thou Fount".

Oh how daily I am that debtor, that sinner,  I am constrained to be....Oh how I know I am proned to wander from the God I love. I wander to the land of Pinterest, I wander to the land of analyzing others. I wander to the calling out the hypocrisy of others, even what I call the "anti-christian Christian".  They wear their Christianity on the outside, but they really don't live it. And in the end I am the sinner. I don't live it. I am put off, annoyed or resentful. Well, just read the lyrics folks,  I AM THE DEBTOR.

I looked up what an ebenezer was, and according to my credulous sources, (some obscure internet website) it's a rock Samuel erected in God's honor. It's a declaration of stating I am redoing my life following God. I like it. People put rocks on their coffee table just to raise their ebenezer. Nice home decor statement. But I want that so desperately. I want to re-do the decor of my dark sided heart/soul. No more resentment, no more analyzing, just lovely founts of every blessing.

Here's my heart, o take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above, here's my heart, o take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above. 

Whoever wrote this, knows me too well. Smart man.