When am I going to stop ranting? I need to be gentle. But when I read somebody's status that bugs me....ummm I rant.
Love me a good rant. Ain't even gonna lie. Especially when I think I'm right. Even better is when I know I'm right.
I just rant on and on, feeling justified in my self-righteous opinions and well researched facts which end up equaling: a RANT.
Inevitably I feel bad after my rant. I realize I need to be more gentle. More kind. My well-honed opinions of pop culture and topical news could be delivered in a softer, less sarcastic way.
I gotta start trying harder. I gotta rant less, love more. Ok, new MANTRA: rant less, love more.
One problem, zizzle, these opinions of mine. Um, they wanna bust out like pin-size hole in a water balloon....phrewwwwwww..and out they come. Like when I read a status from teachers who are off all FREAKIN SUMMER and then they start saying....aw, gotta go back to work, summer's over...and they get like a hundred likes...and I am bustin'..I am just bustin' to leave a sarcastic comment...."poor you, aw, you were home or on vacation for 8 weeks...aw, that ain't right...."
I write it. Then I delete it. Cause I wanna be gentler. And being gentler is hard for me.
And because I like alot of these people. When the rant starts, I lose sight of who is reading it. I forget that the teacher who may have posted this status could actually be someone I like. Ouch.
I realize how gentle God is with me. He knows me. He knows how easily and sharply I can attack. And He still loves me. Ouch.
He knows I feel bad afterward, even when I am just thinking about the verbal attack, that one I may not post, but am still entertaining the stinging thoughts swirling in my brain...He knows. And He still loves me.
But don't get me wrong, I believe God gives ME a good old fashioned RANT whenever He sees me acting up...ohyeahHEdoes. He calls me out.
Calls me out---I was abrupt with someone, like that lady today....and her beautiful, round eyes brimmed with tears, then I teared up...and held her hand, told it was going to be ok, I would help her.
Ok so, maybe with some work, I will become more Gentle. RANT LESS, LOVE MORE.
QUICK SOMEBODY, LET ME POST MY NEW STATUS....at least for today....